Normally a new year means excitement for what is to come for me... This year has me BLUE. As we got home last night Jonathan joked that since we are staying in today, he should spend it packing his bags. He took a job a few months back in Florida and while we hoped the house would sell quickly(but knew it was realistically a bad time of year), it hasn't. Which means the kids and I are here WAITING for the house to sell while he has "moved" to Florida. So Sunday, when the holidays are done, and the kids are getting ready to go back to school, Jonnie will be leaving to go to work and I don't know when he will be back to visit. It is such a transition for our family. We miss him terribly. I hate when he leaves, but I normally have an end date for when he will be back. A time, I can make a countdown for the kids to look forward to. This time, I do not.
The worst part is, over the last week and a half, our house has been full of love and family. My in-laws came to visit as well so its been nice having everyone here. Sunday evening, we drive to the airport with a carload of 6, and leave just the 3 of us. It is hard enough for me, but seeing how it will affect the kids, hurts me too. I'm scared of their reaction, as well as my own.
In typical Hilliary fashion, once the realization hit me. I became a moody mess. I don't want to be around anyone, I want to be alone... I don't want to hang out or do anything that anyone else wants to do, I just want to be blah (picture Sadness from Inside Out). I hate my coping mechanisms because I hate that people take it personally. I hate that people think it is them I'm upset with (I mean really, if you did nothing to me, why would I be upset with you). It is really nothing personal, it is just me being sad, and moody because I'm about to feel abandoned. I don't like it, but its my truth. I hope this house sells quickly now that the market should start picking up, we need to be together, not apart.
Friday, January 1, 2016
Wednesday, December 24, 2014
Out with the Old...
So I obviously did not keep up my daily blog. I did not even make it weekly or monthly for that matter. I found several topics I started, but never finished... That is fine, I am going to start more often though. I logged on here to get my fudge recipe and then realized that I can use this site for so much more. So I'm planning a remodel and revisit. I am going to start blogging about my Wildtree business and the products we offer. As well, I'm going to start reviewing places we have been and things we have tried. For example, in the last month we have been on 2 Carnival cruises that I would love to share my opinion on and it will be coming. Just need to finish my Teacher certification CPE hours and renew my certification first.
So much to come so exciting.
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Revamp for 2014
So I have decided that I am going to start blogging daily. It may be weird sometimes as I search for topics, but it is going to happen. Today will be easy enough because it is the first post I'll share what has been going on.
I am in the process of building a stuffed animal "cage" for Noah's toys. I will post a step-by-step blog detailing the build process for those interested. As well, I am debating a business venture to generate some income, more to come as that progresses. And I am picking up the coupons again in order to save us some money (I can refer you to someone who teaches a class and runs a private group that I use). I will be finishing the furniture for Noah's "big boy room" and painting the room in the coming weeks. I am organizing the house and preparing myself for big lifestyle changes that I will talk about also.
2014 is the year my life will change. I have high hopes and expectations for myself and my family. I am going to be more vigilant with my household duties to prevent the stresses that frustrate me so.
For now, I need to log off and pack the kids lunches and get them up and ready for school today.
I am in the process of building a stuffed animal "cage" for Noah's toys. I will post a step-by-step blog detailing the build process for those interested. As well, I am debating a business venture to generate some income, more to come as that progresses. And I am picking up the coupons again in order to save us some money (I can refer you to someone who teaches a class and runs a private group that I use). I will be finishing the furniture for Noah's "big boy room" and painting the room in the coming weeks. I am organizing the house and preparing myself for big lifestyle changes that I will talk about also.
2014 is the year my life will change. I have high hopes and expectations for myself and my family. I am going to be more vigilant with my household duties to prevent the stresses that frustrate me so.
For now, I need to log off and pack the kids lunches and get them up and ready for school today.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Kale Chips
Kale completely surprised me in that it tasted very much like broccoli, therefore I found these
very enjoyable.
Kale
Olive Oil
Salt
Preheat oven to 275. Remove leaves from stems and wash. Drizzle leaves with olive oil and sprinkle with salt. Toss until all leaves are coated. Spread on baking pan and bake for 15 minutes. Flip leaves and bake for another 15 minutes or until completely crispy.
very enjoyable.
Kale
Olive Oil
Salt
Preheat oven to 275. Remove leaves from stems and wash. Drizzle leaves with olive oil and sprinkle with salt. Toss until all leaves are coated. Spread on baking pan and bake for 15 minutes. Flip leaves and bake for another 15 minutes or until completely crispy.
Easy Thai Chicken
This recipe is an adapted version of a recipe found here: http://www.successrice.com/en-us/recipes/3321/easythaichickenandrice.aspx
1.5 lbs chicken breast, cut in small pieces
garlic powder (optional)
onion powder (optional)
black pepper (optional)
1 cup coconut milk
1Tbsp Thai red curry
2 tsp brown sugar packed firmly
1 tsp lime juice
1/4 tsp salt
1 bag frozen Asian style vegetables (16 oz), thawed
1/2 cup peanuts (optional)
Combine coconut milk, curry, brown sugar, lime juice, and salt. Set aside.
Sprinkle garlic powder, onion powder, and pepper lightly on cut up chicken and mix together.
Saute chicken until cooked through. Mix in vegetables and add curry sauce. Cook until thoroughly heated.
Serve over rice and top with the peanuts.
1.5 lbs chicken breast, cut in small pieces
garlic powder (optional)
onion powder (optional)
black pepper (optional)
1 cup coconut milk
1Tbsp Thai red curry
2 tsp brown sugar packed firmly
1 tsp lime juice
1/4 tsp salt
1 bag frozen Asian style vegetables (16 oz), thawed
1/2 cup peanuts (optional)
Combine coconut milk, curry, brown sugar, lime juice, and salt. Set aside.
Sprinkle garlic powder, onion powder, and pepper lightly on cut up chicken and mix together.
Saute chicken until cooked through. Mix in vegetables and add curry sauce. Cook until thoroughly heated.
Serve over rice and top with the peanuts.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Feeling better
All I needed was a day with an adult. It started with dropping Noah off to play while I went to a dentist appointment. Of course, they need consent to treat forms from Dr. Wiley. Why could no one tell me this before? UGH. Needless to say it was a quick appointment and I was back with Noah in 45 minutes. He didn't even miss me and that made me feel fantastic!
After I got back, we decided to take the boys to the zoo. It was TERRIFIC! I needed a day of interaction with an adult. It was a refresh for my soul. Funny think about it is, now I feel like doing housework, making dinner, and being the doting mommy/wife I normally tend to be. What a silly thing to realize that just 1 day can make such a difference in my mind, body, and soul... I need to do this more often.
After I got back, we decided to take the boys to the zoo. It was TERRIFIC! I needed a day of interaction with an adult. It was a refresh for my soul. Funny think about it is, now I feel like doing housework, making dinner, and being the doting mommy/wife I normally tend to be. What a silly thing to realize that just 1 day can make such a difference in my mind, body, and soul... I need to do this more often.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Overwhelmed
Yup that is me, completely and utterly overwhelmed. I need my husband's support and I don't feel it. He is always busy with work and when he is home in the evenings I need to ask for help. Hello, I'm 25w 5d pregnant. I'm tired. I have an 18 month old who relies on mommy, its exhausting. I shouldn't have to ask for help you should offer some relief. Especially when you get to leave and go out of town and I am home to handle EVERYTHING. How many times in the last month have you done anything in the house without being pestered to do it? Dishes? Vacuum? Picking up/Organizing?
Our beautiful little girl is due in 14-ish weeks and I'm carrying the bag as always. We talk about it, you don't listen. I beg for it, I feel like you don't care.
To make matters worse, I feel completely and utterly friendless. I know I have friends who are busy with their families, however I need adults to talk to and interact with. A girls night out (or in) to play games, talk and unwind. I need to re-energize and I am just plain tapped out. I have Noah who clings on me for EVERYTHING and a husband whose idea of helping me is waiting until I beg for assistance (and even then its pulling teeth).
There isn't a lot that needs doing... We need to clean out our closet, bathroom, and bedroom to make room for baby. We need big boy furniture for Noah. We need to clear the dining room and clean up the kitchen. There are little messes in between (like my desk int eh living room), but they are not something that will take time and dedication. I beg you to help me get these areas to a sustainable and reasonable level of clean so I can run through the house with a vacuum, duster, and scrubbing a few items once a week and have it all done. Instead, more stuff is piled into the dining room making more work for me. I am tired of weekends upon weekends of putting shit off just because and it taking months or me to handle it all because I am the only one involved. It angers and depresses me. It makes me honestly want to cry.
I feel bad... I unnecessarily picked on my Jonnie. He was my focus of my overwhelming sensation only because he was readily available. Yes I need his help and yes I would appreciate more assistance, but I really should not blame him when all I really need is some adult interaction!
Our beautiful little girl is due in 14-ish weeks and I'm carrying the bag as always. We talk about it, you don't listen. I beg for it, I feel like you don't care.
To make matters worse, I feel completely and utterly friendless. I know I have friends who are busy with their families, however I need adults to talk to and interact with. A girls night out (or in) to play games, talk and unwind. I need to re-energize and I am just plain tapped out. I have Noah who clings on me for EVERYTHING and a husband whose idea of helping me is waiting until I beg for assistance (and even then its pulling teeth).
There isn't a lot that needs doing... We need to clean out our closet, bathroom, and bedroom to make room for baby. We need big boy furniture for Noah. We need to clear the dining room and clean up the kitchen. There are little messes in between (like my desk int eh living room), but they are not something that will take time and dedication. I beg you to help me get these areas to a sustainable and reasonable level of clean so I can run through the house with a vacuum, duster, and scrubbing a few items once a week and have it all done. Instead, more stuff is piled into the dining room making more work for me. I am tired of weekends upon weekends of putting shit off just because and it taking months or me to handle it all because I am the only one involved. It angers and depresses me. It makes me honestly want to cry.
I feel bad... I unnecessarily picked on my Jonnie. He was my focus of my overwhelming sensation only because he was readily available. Yes I need his help and yes I would appreciate more assistance, but I really should not blame him when all I really need is some adult interaction!
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