Overwhelmed

Yup that is me, completely and utterly overwhelmed. I need my husband's support and I don't feel it. He is always busy with work and when he is home in the evenings I need to ask for help. Hello, I'm 25w 5d pregnant. I'm tired. I have an 18 month old who relies on mommy, its exhausting. I shouldn't have to ask for help you should offer some relief. Especially when you get to leave and go out of town and I am home to handle EVERYTHING. How many times in the last month have you done anything in the house without being pestered to do it? Dishes? Vacuum? Picking up/Organizing?

Our beautiful little girl is due in 14-ish weeks and I'm carrying the bag as always. We talk about it, you don't listen. I beg for it, I feel like you don't care.

To make matters worse, I feel completely and utterly friendless. I know I have friends who are busy with their families, however I need adults to talk to and interact with. A girls night out (or in) to play games, talk and unwind. I need to re-energize and I am just plain tapped out. I have Noah who clings on me for EVERYTHING and a husband whose idea of helping me is waiting until I beg for assistance (and even then its pulling teeth).

There isn't a lot that needs doing... We need to clean out our closet, bathroom, and bedroom to make room for baby. We need big boy furniture for Noah. We need to clear the dining room and clean up the kitchen. There are little messes in between (like my desk int eh living room), but they are not something that will take time and dedication. I beg you to help me get these areas to a sustainable and reasonable level of clean so I can run through the house with a vacuum, duster, and scrubbing a few items once a week and have it all done. Instead, more stuff is piled into the dining room making more work for me. I am tired of weekends upon weekends of putting shit off just because and it taking months or me to handle it all because I am the only one involved. It angers and depresses me. It makes me honestly want to cry.

I feel bad... I unnecessarily picked on my Jonnie. He was my focus of my overwhelming sensation only because he was readily available. Yes I need his help and yes I would appreciate more assistance, but I really should not blame him when all I really need is some adult interaction!